Everybody always talks about how you don’t feel that different after a birthday. Like how does it feel to be 19? You never have any idea because you’ve only been 19 (or 18, 17…) for a little bit. I think on birthdays you can’t tell how it will feel to be a new age but you can officially tell how it felt to be the one you just left behind. 

So my life as an 18 year old is officially over, that chapter is written in stone, everything from here on out will be chapter 19. 

Here’s the chapter 18 things that I wouldn’t mind keeping up in 19 too:

-traveling all over the place! While 18 I went to New York, Paris, Florida, San Francisco, and from Vegas to California to Utah pretty much several times a month. I hope 19 holds the same adventures

-making so many wedding videos. I think I’ll forever consider 18 as when I went all in, took off, and started getting more jobs that I really loved. Who knows thought! Maybe I can be more all in. 

It’s been a really long year. I joke with everybody that I’ve been 18 for my entire life but that’s really how it feels. I can hardly even remember a time before then. I'm so excited for what this year will bring!!
I woke up to streamers and balloons all over the apartment from the sweetest roommates and best friends ever! Super sucky, I had class for a big part of the day but it was still okay because every hour had a little bit of birthday magic. The birthday fairy is real guys. 
Also if you aren't already, live every day like it's your birthday. There's no other day that you love yourself more, or are more excited to wake up, motivated to get ready and look cute, and just plain have so much fun than your birthday. Who says you can't do that all the time!? IDK just some life insight I gained on September 5, 2017.
Mom surprised me and schemed with Syd to get the yummiest Sweet Tooth Fairy cake! I'm still dreaming about it!


 Just a little blog post to document what the past few weeks have consisted of...
 FINALLY got moved in to my new apartment in Provo. Let's just say there was a little bit of drama getting the keys and everything sorted out... BUT it's fine now! Hopefully pictures of my room coming soon if I ever get it done? Haha!
 such fun bonding with Syd before our other roomies Bella & Maddie moved in (and before our TV worked hah!)
There was quite a bit of filming and hustling all over the place to get the shot! 
Also a lot of killing time at City Creek in between shoots/running into Corbin between his too 
KHALID came to SLC right after we all moved up and was such a fun concert! 
Other things that are part of the new routine are rolled ice cream, 
old  Provo temple trips,
 dirty dancing class @ VASA on Thursday nights,
My cute family came to visit me before my birthday! It was so fun showing them around my new home. We went to Sundance and rode the lift which for sure makes my list of coolest things to do in Utah! 
And waiting in line/camping out 24 hours in advance for front row seats to the BYU vs UofU game. SO WORTH IT!



8/31- mini recees runs at CVS, vocal point concerts, comm class cancelled 
8/30- vegan food with Bella, laying out with Bella, institute 
8/29- Dirty dancing, long days that don't feel that long, tassel earrings
8/28- target for groceries (instead of Walmart @logan), bachelor in paradise at MaCall's, phone calls f mom 
8/27- Sundays in Provo, cookie brownie and movies, heart to hearts with Bella 
8/26- lashes freshly done, getting to see dad, that I didn't have to move my own stuff in today and that's allll over
8/25- Hannah Leavitt (HBD), Friday morning temple trips, acai bowls, service for Emma #girlsneedtosupportgirls
8/24- Fixing the wifi all by myself (major adulting), dancing classes at VASA, that it's the freakin weekend 
8/23- Lit khalid concert, midnight in n out conversations, new institute class (and parking pass), off the waitlist for tech 
8/22- emma in astronomy with me, roll with it with Madison and syd, made it through day one! 
8/21- That my prints came/my room looks good/I'm all settled/almost all the errands are done, bachelor in paradise night at MaCalls, tech 1010 is maybe gonna be lit 
8/20- FINALLY not being homeless, new hand towels and lamps and shelves and lots of stuff, lots of hope for this coming year, reaching my goal right in time and finishing the Book of Mormon!!
8/19- feeling full, proposal videos gone so right (even if they're clear in Logan), surprising cait and Brooke in my old apartment, syd and Jolynn made it to Provo, corbin showed me where all my classes are
8/18- Black and white checkered dance floors, Jennie Slade for being my photographer friend for the day, running into corbin at city creek, bed spread price adjusted so that money goes towards an anthro candle
8/17- nice cream with Camrie and Lindsey, number 11 nude gel nails, getting to at least put my stuff in my room early #blessup
8/16- My adulting, starbucks day long editing sessions, late night target runs with Tosh part 2, that the mirror fit
8/15- mad greens, homecoming videos gone right, laying on the grass at Anna's soccer games, midnight yogurt runs with Tosha and Anna
8/14- that mom somehow always finds a way to sneak notes and treats into my bag when I leave, that "if you bring lexi to the strip we'll have to go to the fountains", pop for a poppin new year, that I didn't drive to Logan after flying into SLC tonight 
8/13- fathers blessings before school starts, the pink lace dress looked so cute on me, all the foothills relief society ladies
8/12- new free people shirt, night in with mom, lexis sense of humor
8/11- Hannah's shower is a success, sushi fever is delicious, mom is so cute, good friend vibes, summerlin mom mingling 
8/10- Eliza's in town, balloon blowing up til 2 am, student council flashbacks, movie theatre kettle popcorn
8/9- incredible oquirrh mountain temple lighting, nice photographers, inspiring podcasts, productive afternoons spent in Starbucks 
8/8- lashes by Mady, roll with it with Taylor, mentoring sessions, opportunities to serve
8/7- new anthropologie blanket, people who invest in me, the Alison show podcasts, cute cousin benson's birthday
8/6- the bailey family dinner, good sabbaths, peach pie
8/5- awesome weddings with candy bars and super nice photographers, super short drive from st George to Cedar Hills, tosha and the Evans fam for letting me stay with them, face timing lexi to make the drive less lonely
8/4- grandmas st George house, the Wunderli girls, quick and painless drives
8/3- Sam came home and I did a great job filming it, free people soft t-shirts, popcorn girl with Mom and Drake
8/2- finished San Fran videos, kindof being done packing, productive unproductive days
8/1- it's August (!!), made it through the summer almost, sprinkles with my best friends and future roomies, late nights bridal shower planning with mom



 What is it about the sight of a car packed to the rim with everything I own and an empty bedroom that makes me tear up a little? Ahh change is so hard! Even when it's good change. Even when it's change I've been waiting for since February. Is it so weird that looking at the calendar of May-August I pretty much always thought "I just have to get through this week" every single week and now I'm though all the weeks and want it back a little?

I spent this whole plane ride to Utah scrolling though my summer camera roll and drafting this little blog post. All the acai/shaved ice/ice cream/sprinkles cupcake pics, and all the beach selfies, road trip sky pictures, babysitting snaps, wedding video insta stories, shopping at Nordstrom mirror pics, and profesh camera vacation/trip pictures. And I realized that 2 things made this summer so great:
1. Really genuinely living in the present and not having a single worry. Even though babysitting was tough and most everyone was out of town I truly tried to make the best of all of it and didn't worry about what was coming next
2. Being with the people I was with. I didn't have many friends home but Syd and Lex made it the best with me. And my cute family. They're the best too. Note to self it's not about where you are or HOW MANY people you're with but truly, genuinely, WHO you're with. 

It's the end of an era but beginning of a REAL exciting one too! Here's how I spent my last official day in the 702:

We all took a trip down to our favorite spot on the strip- the Linq Promenade to celebrate Maddie's 19th birthday early!
And it was Lexi's great idea to also stop down by the Las Vegas sign to take pictures!  
 On the way to the airport we had a little family meet up at Vegas' new soda shop, Pop, because Mom says that this year's theme is "it's poppin'' 
is there anything more classic than Drake in this? Lol ^^ 
anndddd I'm crying typing this lol I have issues. Exciting things to come though!!!



 It's been an insane couple of weeks... actually only one week but it feels like it could've been 6 with the amount that's happened. I packed up and drove up to my soon to be home, Provo UT. I definitely started to feel the end of an era feelings as I saw the Vegas strip in my rear view mirror (SO classic haha). I dropped my things off in storage, filmed a few wedding videos while staying with family, and then flew back home to Vegas (that rear view mirror stuff was short lived) all for the occasion...

Oh my gosh she's really getting married!? Hannah is the longest best friend I've ever had and I couldn't be happier for her. My crew had such a fun time getting all together again (minus Savannah) and throwing the best ever bridal shower for the soon to be Mrs. White. 
 a solid 24 hours consisted of nothing but blowing and hanging up balloons. So worth it though! 
 The whole theme was WHITE (thank's Conor for having such a great last name to base our theme around)
white chocolate fountain, white cupcakes, white popcorn, and white balloons (with a few neutrals just so the white wasn't overwhelming obviously)
I love these girls more than anything, am so grateful that our friendship has withstood the test of college/change/growth, and as sad as I am that Han's in wedding la la land not wanting to hang out with anyone but lover man anymore, I'm so so excited for her!